yesterday is the past, tomorrow is mysterious, and today is a gift

that’s what people said and what i heard from them. yesterday is the past. yea it is. we did so many things ‘yesterday’; eating-playing etc.

tomorrow is mysterious. we will never know what will happen tomorrow even though we already planned things we wanna do tomorrow. and still, there is no possibility of failing plan.

and today is a gift. why is it a gift? because we still can breath in this world. we still can see everything around us, messing around ‘em, laugh smile cry etc. so you have to be so grateful to the God because you’re still given a chance to be alive.

at first i felt so down. yea, so down of what had happened to me in the past. everything was like a jerking nightmare. i really don’t know why but i felt it that way. i even couldn’t see who i am anymore. who am i? where am i? i don”t know and will never know; confused.

until i met someone who changed a=me a lil bit, until i met his friend who is like me-in-the-past, i felt like-.., hey, this is your life. why are you keep looking behind while the time is still going on for you? the time hasn’t stopped yet, has it? your life is still going on, but why you being like a jerk like this?

yea. both of them already changed me a bit, though, still being hunted by pasts in all of the sudden sometimes. remembering that way, i’ll just think about something else quickly asap. and well, i did it though.

i know i’m just a stupid jerking girl. i am lost somewhere; yes i admit that. they were right. i ain’t me.i am somewhere; unknown place. and i’m still seeking for myself in that unknown place. ‘i’ must be hiding somewhere.

thanks a lot to both of them, yea. they changed me. yet, well, i need some times to fix myself..
….HEY WHAT? NOO I HAVE NO TIME! i have to just start it NOW, right?

now my life ain’t the life which is like a messy. it might be worse than other people, but at least i want to continue walking and making another step. and yes, with both of them. or even though it’s not without both of them for real, i’ll walk with all people i loved in my heart..

ok look. i’m freaking tired with all of this. why the heck did those stupid people said things like a lovely perls yet it’s actually so fucking disgusting like a SHIT?!!!

yes. i’m really tired, jerk. i might be a forgiving-loving-easytobelieveinsomeone person. but HEY I HAVE MY OWN LIMIT HAHAHA *start to get crazy around*

whenever i remember of what happened, i would be like-.. um, “WTF HAD GOTTEN IMMA MIND?!!!” or “DID I JUST SUCK MA OWN ASSHOLE?!!!!!*. oh yes i can be that-.. over react ==a

guys, if you think you can take my heart easily, i would say NO YOU CAN’T. started from now on, you won’t be able to take my heart anymore HAHAHA. ups JK :p

it’s a real hard thing to be someone like me. or, well, it’s hard to be someone else. you are guys still a lucky one because you are not me —or someone else— and you are a gift. while me? me ish a doom. no, no ‘jk’ this time. seriously, i’m just a doom.